Monday...December 6, 2005

I saw the doctor today. I spoke to him about me and my down days all the time. He put me on a anti-depressent. I am not sure how I feel about being on pills but if they make me feel more like myself (or how I used to be) then I guess I will give it a shot. He told me that pain and depression go hand and hand and he wants me to join a support group that he is starting for people in chronic pain. I try to be happy-go-lucky but lately I am failing at this miserably. I have not been myself since my car accidents 2 years ago. I have neck and shoulder problems which really stink because I had back problems before this but I took care of that by having a breast reduction...now I have neck problems....go figure....just my luck...eh? Most people don't know how often I hurt...except for my husband and kids...I just try to get through each day the best I can...some days are easy others not so much...today is one of those days that I am not feeling so hot. I was supposed to go to a Christmas party tonight for my Beauti-control business associates but I just did not feel up to it...I was also supposed to go to the church and help decorate it but I was not up to that either. I took a pain pill that my mom gave to me and I am feeling a little bit buzzed....so I would say that right now I feel fine...(lol)

My husband came home early from work today...he missed yesterday and was sent home early today because of his back...it is still really bothering him. He is getting laid off on Friday..He is happy about it because he says that he needs a break...he works really hard at that job. He will be off for almost a month. He has to file unemployment on Thursay.
I signed up for a new family doctor today. I have an appointment to meet with him in a couple weeks. I don't have a regular family doctor right now because she moved and I had not gotten around to doing this....anyway everytime Jon or I have to go to the doctor we go to the clinic in which we are charged an emergency visit and I was getting tired of not having our own doctor to go to...I hope that I like him. I am going to talk to him about weight loss surgery.. I am hoping to get it done before summer. Well that is about all that has happened today....really tired now so I will be signing off....till tomorrow